shira and i before temple/date night on wednesday. thanks for a good time dicksons!
it started off as one of those days where you just want to stay in bed all day long. you know when you get in a mood that is just really hard to shake? most likely the product of female hormones. i'm aware of it, which makes it a little easier to control. but i'm sensitive today. maybe i should just put on marley and me when i get home from work and cry it out?
anyway, i was browsing facebook and came across a really good blog. this was exactly what i needed today. what an inspired thought. it's definitely a topic that i think about from time to time. especially because i am not yet a parent, i really enjoy asking people about their experiences and learning things before it's my turn. it's quite disappointing to talk about it with joy and excitement only to have someone shoot down all the positivity with all of their horror stories and vast knowledge of the terror to come. thanks, but no thanks. save the bad vibes for someone else. i am choosing to see the joy in it all.
no, i have not yet experienced the sleepless nights, the labor pains or the tantrums. yes, i know there will be moments in which it will be a struggle, however, i am also looking forward to experiencing the moment my child looks into my eyes for the first time, the moment when tyler and i sit in a quiet hospital room with a new baby that we made, the moment my baby smiles, laughs or walks, the moment my child says "mama" or "i love you". maybe parenting is hard, but what in life that is actually worth doing isn't?
even though today started out as one of those days, that article just reminded me that Heavenly Father is aware of my thoughts and my tender spirit. it needed to be struck with some wisdom today. i am so blessed to have that in my life.
and just in case you were wondering, the answer is yes, i definitely cried when i read it.
happy weekend everyone!
2 comments:
I totally cried when I read it too! And I actually had a really sweet experience a couple days ago. It was a really really bad day for me and I had just about had it. I laid down on the ground and just as the tear drops were beginning to fall, Brody stopped what he was doing and came and laid next to me with his head on top of mine. Just for a few seconds. Then he got up looked me in the eyes and smiled and was back to playing. But it was just what I needed to keep me going. Eventhough it is hard sometimes, you're right, it's so worth it. And that moment meant so much more to me than the entire day of struggling. You're going to be such a good mom when the time comes!
I think I needed that today, too.
I love being a mom, and I wouldn't trade anything in the world for it. But there are definitely days that try me to my breaking point (like today, for example, where I had to pull my 16-month-old away from eating the kitty litter sand for the 5th time in one hour after just having finished sweeping up from the last time...). There are also times I yearn for the freedom couples without children have -- the ability to just up and leave town for the weekend; stress-free date nights; the chance to hang out with friends past 7:30 PM; actually having a social life; sleeping in...
Then my 3-year-old spontaneously runs up, hugs and kisses me, and tells me she loves me. My 16-month-old follows suit and squeezes me so tight I can barely breathe. And that's when I remember that I have the best job in the world, and there is no greater joy than knowing I get to share each and every moment of my day with them.
Thank you for reminding me yet again of that joy. It honestly is sometimes hard not to focus on all the bad and hard times, but when you really think about it, it's not that bad. The good and the joy are far greater. :)
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