Saturday, January 25, 2014

reality is setting in

tonight we attended the childbirth center open house at the hospital i'll be delivering at. it was awesome. a nurse ran the whole thing and told us a bunch of great information about labor, tips on what to bring to the hospital, delivery and the recovery process. tyler and i were there together, along with many other couples, listening intently to every word.

then it hit me.

the tears came to my eyes and the magnitude of what is coming very soon struck me so strongly.

she spoke about what happens after the baby is born. they place a blanket/towel on mommy's stomach and as soon as the baby comes out they lay him down and wipe him off. this helps to stimulate breathing. for the parents, it gives us time to count his fingers and toes and in my case, stare in complete amazement at this tiny human that our love has created. she then told us how they take the baby when the time comes for the placenta to come out. this way they can weigh and measure him and check all his vitals. after this, it is babymoon time. they lay the diapered baby on mommy's chest so to mimic being in the uterus. he can feel your warmth and hear your heart beating. he knows your smell. dad is there helping you hold onto the baby. she added that most times, when the dad starts to talk, the baby will turn to look for him. they look for him because they know his voice. he knows us.

i totally almost lost it. i teared up and smiled. when i looked over at tyler he was smiling ear to ear. it was such a sweet moment. as we both realized how amazing it will be to meet our son and that he will know us, just like we know him.

hearing her talk about labor, epidurals, the possibility of a c-section, etc. was of course a little scary, but hearing about the part when all that is over and we get to meet our baby boy, just makes all that other stuff seem a little less scary and totally worth it.

we had our 20 week ultrasound back on january 16th and little boy was stubborn, the only good picture we got was of his little man parts. we also got a call this week from the doctor letting me know the baby was measuring fine, but they saw a little bit of previa, meaning that my placenta is sitting on top of my cervix. they aren't too worried about it because often times as the baby grows, the placenta just moves out of the way, but they are going to do another ultrasound at my next appointment in a couple weeks. so hopefully we will get to see his cute little face a little better this time around and everything will be growing appropriately.

for now, i will stare at these photos of him at 16 weeks when we found out the gender and wait to feel him kicking around. he is so cute. i love him so much already. i am thrilled to meet him in just about 4 months. i feel like this is all going by so quickly.

son, we love you and are so happy you are coming to our family!

21 week bump

Thursday, January 23, 2014

the day he was born

i seriously do not even know where to start. today is tyler's 29th birthday! to say that i love him is an understatement. i am SO insanely thankful that he was born those 29 years ago and that he was raised to be the man that he is. he isn't perfect by any means, but he is mine and i couldn't be happier about it. i love him so dearly for everything that he is. we may be different in so many ways, but he is such an amazing person to be with and i love him every minute of every day.

today as i was driving home from running errands and it was triple play on a random radio station that i never listen to. they just so happened to play three U2 songs in a row. U2 is tyler's favorite band of all time, so of course i thought about tyler the entire time the songs played. it was nice to just sit and think about him and how if he was in the car with me he would have turned up the volume just as loud. he makes me smile. i love him.

i decided to go through some of our photos and post some of my favorite memories of him throughout the years. it was so much fun thinking about all the things we have done, places we have gone and how many people that we love have shared in those memories. we have had such a wonderful life together and i cannot wait to see what new adventures we get to experience as our family grows. i am so excited to see tyler take on the role of father. it is going to be SO much fun!!!

i love tyler for a lot of reasons, here are a few...

his faith
his encouragement
his stature - tall, dark and extremely handsome
his smile
the way he holds my hand
his laugh that crinkles his nose
the way he lights up when he talks about playing sports
the way he loves food
his cuddles
his kisses
his worthiness to hold the priesthood
the way he loves me
his taste in music and movies
his athletic abilities
his willingness to give
his hugs
because he dances with me
he loves the ocean
he likes to be active
he supports me in my endeavors
because he is the best!

happy birthday tyler, i LOVE you!!!

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

i think i always knew

today i decided to stop by our storage unit and put away our christmas decorations. while i was there i thought i'd grab the box of baby stuff i've been saving for the past few years. i got home, opened the box and pulled out outfit after outfit, realizing that all but two were for a boy. maybe i always knew i'd have a boy first. i cannot wait to put our sweet little boy in these clothes!!!

then today i stopped by gap maternity and came up empty handed, so i walked into baby gap and found SO many cute things on sale. i picked up these little gems and i love them! these are the first things i've bought since i found out the gender, hopefully i can withstand the temptation until after our baby showers!

in other news, i started feeling the baby kick last week! everyday i wait for him to move around. it's just flutters, like someone gently tapping my belly from the inside. it is seriously magical.

i love it!

18 week bump

Friday, January 3, 2014

christmas morning

christmas was so fun this year. brylee was so stinking cute opening her gifts. it was so much fun to watch her. we all just giggled and admired her. we had breakfast, opened gifts and then we all headed off to spend the afternoons with our in laws. it was such a nice and easy day. it's getting better and better as we focus on the next generation as opposed to ourselves.

to end the day we went to see the secret life of walter mitty with the rex's. it was SUCH a good movie. the feel good ending just made my day. it definitely did not disappoint!