it was 5 months to the day of taking my last pregnancy test on april 25th.
i've tried to keep a record of my experiences this far with being pregnant. here are a few thoughts i have been jotting down...
keeping it a secret has been really hard. at about 5 weeks i started feeling super nauseous. luckily i haven't vomited yet and i am hoping to keep it that way. feeling sick all day long makes it pretty hard to pretend like i am completely fine. i feel super bloated already. most of my pants stopped fitting around week 7. i'm constipated. i never feel like getting dressed up. i don't want to blow dry or curl my hair, put on make up or wear anything other than my stretchy pants and a baggy tee. if only i could pull off that "i just woke up looking fabulous and messy" look. nope. not me folks. my sense of smell is like crazy sensitive. i hate it. it is super annoying. i can no longer eat anything with garlic or brussel sprouts. just typing it out just now makes me queasy. yuck.
i feel huge. i think i'm in that weird "i look and feel fat, but you can't tell i am pregnant yet" phase. i really hope i feel pretty again at some point. it's really lame feeling ugly all the time, even when i do muster up the energy to put on make up and do my hair. but i suppose this is all proof that a miracle is happening inside of me. that a little baby is in there growing and slowly taking up all the room. so i am okay with it. i will try my best to grin and bear it because i know that one day months from now i will wonder how it all happened so fast.