celebrating my first mother's day

it was a lovely day! tyler made the bed, cooked a delicious brunch, got me gorgeous flowers and rockwell was adorable, as always. we also got to celebrate with my mom and she loved her gifts! it's so fun to get her grandma gifts now. i love watching her be a grandma to rockwell. he loves her so much and it makes my heart so happy. happy mother's day to all the mothers out there! there are so many wonderful women who have blessed my life, i wouldn't be the person i am today without the help of so many talented women!

 love my boy. so glad he made me a mama!

 so glad i got to celebrate with my mom and sister! we missed kimberly though!

and danielle & greg made chocolate lava cakes for dessert, SO yummy!

mother's day

from the moment i saw the positive pregnancy test i became a mother. i fell in love with my baby. then i met him and that love grew. each and everyday i wake up to his prefect little face and my love for him grows even more. i love laughing with him, smiling with him and experiencing life with him. he is such a sweet boy and i feel so blessed to be his mother. rockwell, i love you. thank you for choosing me to be your mama. i am the luckiest girl in the world!

i have days where i feel like i don't measure up. i feel a heavy burden to be the best version of myself so that rockwell can learn good things from me and sometimes i fall short. luckily, rockwell loves me no matter what and i can repent, try again and improve. i want to do my Heavenly Father proud and raise a good son. i want to do my best in this role as a mother, this sacred calling that i have been given. i know that this is what i was meant to be doing. i know that rockwell was meant to be mine. he is such a blessing. he is such a joy. he is my world. my light. my everything.

tonight i nursed him as he fell asleep in my arms. i held him a little bit longer tonight, thinking about how much i cherish the opportunity i have to be his mama. the fact that Heavenly Father has blessed me with this sweet spirit weighs heavily on my heart. it is the reason i exist. i love it. it makes me so happy.

thank you rockwell for choosing me. i will always do my best for you. i love you with all my heart.

eleven months

eleven months. one month away from ONE year. i can hardly believe it. tyler and i have decided that this has been the fastest year of our lives. life with rockwell has truly been amazing and i can hardly remember life before him. he is our world. when all three of us are together, life just feels right. somehow we're all a little happier... and i love it. i feel so privileged to be rockwell's mama. i feel so blessed to have been given a son that is so happy and fun loving. he is always happier when we're outside and he loves people, especially kids. he is totally in his element when there are other littles to play with. i'm hoping that he will be the kid that is friends with everyone and accepts and loves others willingly. it probably sounds cliche, but i really feel like rockwell is a special boy and that he will do wonderful things throughout his life. i feel honored to get to play a small part in his journey through life.

some things i want to remember about him right now...

• Makes the hand motions for popcorn popping
• Thinks high fives are hilarious
• Crawls... fast
• Eats blueberries, watermelon, bananas, cheerios, puffs, bread, noodles
• Also eats puréed food still, sometimes 4 servings in one sitting
• Nurses first thing in the morning, before naps and bedtime
• Got his two front teeth!
• Loves being outside
• If he's grumpy, feed him
• Loves pushing with his walking toy
• Pulls up and stands next to chairs, tables and even started reaching the door knobs. Luckily he can't turn them and open the doors yet.
• Climbs up onto the couch 
• Loves soft blankets. Now when I rock him to bed I put one on him and he loves it!
• Pushes his toy cars around the house. So cute.
• Sleeps through the night around 7-8 PM to 6-7 AM

We love you sweet Rockwell!