a much needed date night

lately with work, interviews, testing and side jobs i feel like tyler and i have had a hard time finding time to go out on dates. with so much going on, an ever tightening budget and upcoming events i knew that the only day we could make a date happen this week was wednesday. so, on halloween we went to dinner at lucille's bbq, bought some shoes for mr. rex at dsw and saw chasing mavericks. good movie. we recommend it. 

it was a little sad not really celebrating halloween or dressing up, but the good thing was, because everyone else was busy celebrating we got sat right away at dinner and had only two other people in the movie with us. no fighting for a seat! phew. it was so refreshing to just sit down with tyler with no distractions. being with each other and talking about life and our future together. oh, how i love that man. he has been working so hard to find a new job so that he can provide for us and for our future. 

sometimes i forget how hard all of this is on him. i just think about myself and all the things that i am worried about. but i sort of had a little revelation yesterday. i mean, i guess i always knew this, but i never really knew it. forgive me if that doesn't really make any sense. so anyway, i was thinking about life, making mistakes and forgivness. i thought about how doing something wrong not only affects me, but it affects tyler. it affects my future family. we are in this together. we are connected and if i screw up, it hurts all parties involved. then i thought about how i would never want to do anything to make life harder for tyler. i only want to bring him joy. this brought about a new motivation for me to live better in all aspects of my life. i need to be healthy physically and spiritually in order to be whole. i need to treat my body as a sacred vessel and dedicate myself to being healthy. i need to do the same for my spirit. i need to be healthy spiritually in order to be the best wife and (future) mother i can be.

i am so so so grateful for tyler and i have to remind myself that this particular season of life hasn't been easy on him either. being aware of that and trying to be sympathetic to his struggles will help us to grow even stronger. we are blessed to know what we know about God's hand in our lives. lately things have been going better and i know it because of Him. my heart is happy.

changing leaves

 

i am really loving this fall weather over here. it has been in the 60's and 70's as of late and it feels SO good. i especially enjoy driving down the beautiful streets (yes, i have favorite streets) that are filled with changing leaves. it makes me so happy!

over the past couple months there have been some changes in the rex household and sometimes i get a little anxious about it. but then i think about these changing leaves and how they signify a change of seasons. eventually they will fall to the earth, but then in the spring they will return, bright and vibrant. my life is also going through a change of seasons if you will and this season is preparing me for my future. i can see how small things that have been happening lately are helping me prepare for what will eventually come to pass. God is good, he helps me see the beauty in learning little by little.

i know that nothing in this life is certain. anything can change in an instant. i have questions that have yet to be answered, but i will continue to wait and have the faith that He is in control and will guide us. living life unsure is not my cup of tea, but i am trying to be positive. trying to lean on the Lord. trying to be strong. some days i am pretty good at it. other days not so much. luckily i have a really cute man by my side to hold me tight and make me laugh.

so here's to hoping that even though things are a little (or a lot) different, that i too will return bright and vibrant after this season is done.

it's finally here, well kind of

the blessed autumn season is officially upon us, according the calendar at least. unfortunately down here in so cal summer just doesn't want to leave us. there is another heat wave headed our way this weekend and then, hopefully, we will have cooler weather. fingers crossed friends, fingers crossed!

even though the days are still warm, the nights are cooling off. i have lit my leaves candle and put out my few little decorations. next week there is rain in the forecast. rain people. rain! we are giddy about it over here in the rex household. i am already planning my outfit. will it be silly if i wear my boots, a flannel shirt, a scarf, gloves and a beanie? probably. but i might just do it anyways!